Me myself.. and death.

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For every day I miss you, for every hour I need you, for every minute I feel you ,for every second I want you . Forever I will love you . Ain’t nobody that’s above you . I promise you that will never change.

I’m yours until the stars fall from the sky, until the rivers run dry, basically until I die. Your the only girl I see, every time I look deep into my mind. I’d give anything in the whole world to have you by my side.

Apparently this how a heart break
So after i cry ,throw on them dark shades.
The color of my mood ring ,either black or dark grey,
feeling alone in this world will take you to a dark place.

That’s how you start hate, taking all a man ever knew, and the love he once believed was once all fate. I’m real on how I tell it, have haters all day. I knew long distance was a rough road but I learned the hard way.

Sometimes I want to dig a blade deep, through past my veins. Because the pain would be less than what I think inside my brain. And judge mental fucks surrounding me my choices are inane. But would they feel the same, if someone stole there only gleam of change.

I guess it’s my own fault.
I try not to ponder on it.
your last name , I wanted to change , bring honor on it.
I miss your fucking voice and how sweet it always sounded. Just think of how happy we could be if i was still around, to pick you up when you are down, your the one to care I’m on the ground. I miss your smile, you call me babe only kissed you once it lasts a while.

I thought we were forever true, i thought our love was bullet proof. Though That was me , and never you. I should have been a better dude.

I had no clue what I would do if I had lost you. Had a good idea of my feelings and all the costs too. The struggle just to wake up everyday . Not a step that I take, don’t fucking go to wards my walk of shame. You said you’d be here it’ll never be the same.

Was I too chubby ?was my flavor too plain? was I too much for you to handle every. Day.  ? Where you ever happy, Or did I make you too damn sad. I gotta get it out, if you hearin it . this aint all bad.

. Though I am I’m pretty glad, that you found yourself another man, waiting on fairy tale plans, that silver ring up on your hand. I’m happy you moved on. I hope you never hear this song. But if it just so happens to come on I know you’ll play it all night long.

How’s the kids doing ,mia and Armani.
Did you compete in the pageant,ever come up with the money. My eyes are trembling with tears, I find myself often stumbling I thought it’d make us better gave up the cutting and all the puffing. . your my inhaler, without you its hard to breathe. I miss you calling me babe, the I love you’s before I’d sleep.

I finally came up with a nick name, in my mind I call you meep. Because when you would get excited to hear from me you’d would say eep. And eep, rhymes with meep, and meep rhymes with sheep. And those I’m always counting because lately I can’t sleep. Up too late, around 5 , I’m lucky if it’s 3 . Look at your pics I start crying bury my head under the sheets.

Not a day, not a minute goes by your not with me. I would do anything to make you happy , deal turned out shitty. Your man cannot compare to what I’d do for you. I know it’s hard on both of us babe I have depression too. But we still had fun, the fantasies about the sex, I miss your laugh it was the best . My heart beat out my chest, every time I said I loved you and you would say it back. The thoughts in and out of my head seems like there running laps

Do not run from your problems, you have asthma anyway. Just want you to know I still care , and I still love you everyday.